Saturday, January 31, 2009


Wednesday, January 21, 2009

mood swings 

Monday, January 19, 2009

Because sometimes I feel so old
so experienced 
ahead of my years 
out of that league in so many ways

and sometimes I feel so young 
so oblivious
a giddy little girl 
so below that level 

such an odd place 
but wait
do I see myself based on their assumptions? 
oh but Christ has made me so much more! 

I will look to the heavens
I will seek His face
and in discovering 
will find who I truly am 

I am His. 
how can I explain? 
who can describe? 
the trials, the love, an ocean

tossed around
engulfed in compassion  
drowning in grace 
a true perspective of where I am

Monday, January 12, 2009

As a side note...this is not sarcasm.**

Would just like to point out that I will leave this post with an extremely positive note....

once I've let it out. 
*releases heavy sigh* 

Man. I need a gym in my house. 
Sometimes I have to keep myself from wondering if I'm actually going to make it in this industry. 
I'm definitely keeping myself from thinking that.
See? *tosses thought* 
Thought gone. 

I need to....go do something.  
Like finish a drawing.
Or eat some chips!!! 
Yes! AWESOME! That's exactly what I want to do after skipping lunch by accident and over-eating when I get home and skipping the gym is EAT SOME CHIPS!!!!!!!!!! (**except for this thought here)

*jumps around...hollers...flails arms like Sarah* 
I am off to do that very thing. 

OR find those peanut m&m's!!!!
There actually were some left over after the candy war late that night. 
GEE!!! I love life!!!!!!!

Monday, January 5, 2009

I love you! 

always will dontcha' know 
harsh facade 

blazing fire in the night 
glimmer light 

silent footsteps blind sense 

if my love unreturned
forever unchanged 

I love you!

Thursday, January 1, 2009


Fruit-orange is a grapefruit dontcha know? 
To a 5 year old anyway. 

"Where were you last night?" 

"I went to a party. Came home late, you were already in bed.
We had food...and lots of people.


"Then I got bored. 
And came home."


"I didn't know anybody."

"You shoulda asked them to be your friend." 

"Heh, I guess I coulda done that, huh?" 

A day off unexpeted is a nice thing. 
Unless of course you are pretty behind at work...then it's just annoying. 
No, I'm not a work-aholic, I just need to pick up my pace for the next six months. 

There's a nice view of the water here.
little table and chairs by the window. 
There's a lot of little circle marks all over the window. 
Nerf darts most likely. Gotta love it. 

He likes his New Year hat. 
"Some people wear it like this....*tilts hat back* and some people wear it like this *tilts hat to side* but I like to wear it like this *tilts hat to front*. You that animal with a big pointy thing that can stick in know!"

"A woodpecker?"

"Yeah! It can stick in wood....No! Like....uh..."

"Oh! A rhinoceros."


So I need to go clean my room, check my money, do my laundry, go for a jog (yeah right! It's frigid. Though I should go.), find something to wear, design a postcard on my time off, pack, string my guitar, do my nails, burn a few cd's, draw a few things, and breathe. 

It's most entertaining
yells and chest bumps
high fives
runs outside
shouts of joy
like a bunch of maniacs
welcome New Year
I don't mind
smiles and laughter

Happy New Year all!