Mmmm.

Satisfied 

Peaceful

Anticipating

Hungry 

Beautiful

Content.

shallow

mood swings 

jumpy 

inconsistent 

disappointed 

careless 

saddened 

tiny 

helpless 

frail

Because sometimes I feel so old

so experienced 

ahead of my years 

out of that league in so many ways

and sometimes I feel so young 

so oblivious

a giddy little girl 

so below that level 

such an odd place 

but wait

do I see myself based on their assumptions? 

oh but Christ has made me so much more! 

I will look to the heavens

I will seek His face

and in discovering 

will find who I truly am 

I am His. 

how can I explain? 

who can describe? 

the trials, the love, an ocean

tossed around

engulfed in compassion  

drowning in grace 

a true perspective of where I am

As a side note...this is not sarcasm.**

Would just like to point out that I will leave this post with an extremely positive note....

once I've let it out. 

*releases heavy sigh* 

Man. I need a gym in my house. 

Sometimes I have to keep myself from wondering if I'm actually going to make it in this industry. 

I'm definitely keeping myself from thinking that.

See? *tosses thought* 

Thought gone. 

Now... 

I need to....go do something.  

Like finish a drawing.

Or eat some chips!!! 

Yes! AWESOME! That's exactly what I want to do after skipping lunch by accident and over-eating when I get home and skipping the gym is EAT SOME CHIPS!!!!!!!!!! (**except for this thought here)

YESSSS!!!!!!!!!! 

*jumps around...hollers...flails arms like Sarah* 

I am off to do that very thing. 

OR find those peanut m&m's!!!!

There actually were some left over after the candy war late that night. 

GEE!!! I love life!!!!!!!

I love you! 

always will dontcha' know 

chiseled 

sparkling

harsh facade 

blazing fire in the night 

shooting 

dancing 

glimmer light 

silent footsteps blind sense 

deafening  

rythmic 

unpredictable 

if my love unreturned

meaningless 

impelling  

forever unchanged 

I love you!

Fruit-orange

Fruit-orange is a grapefruit dontcha know? 

To a 5 year old anyway. 

"Where were you last night?" 

"I went to a party. Came home late, you were already in bed.

We had food...and lots of people.

"Oh."

"Then I got bored. 

And came home."

"Why?"

"I didn't know anybody."

"You shoulda asked them to be your friend." 

"Heh, I guess I coulda done that, huh?" 

A day off unexpeted is a nice thing. 

Unless of course you are pretty behind at work...then it's just annoying. 

No, I'm not a work-aholic, I just need to pick up my pace for the next six months. 

There's a nice view of the water here.

little table and chairs by the window. 

There's a lot of little circle marks all over the window. 

Nerf darts most likely. Gotta love it. 

He likes his New Year hat. 

"Some people wear it like this....*tilts hat back* and some people wear it like this *tilts hat to side* but I like to wear it like this *tilts hat to front*. You know...like that animal with a big pointy thing that can stick in wood...you know!"

"A woodpecker?"

"Yeah! It can stick in wood....No! Like....uh..."

"Oh! A rhinoceros."

"Yeah!" 

So I need to go clean my room, check my money, do my laundry, go for a jog (yeah right! It's frigid. Though I should go.), find something to wear, design a postcard on my time off, pack, string my guitar, do my nails, burn a few cd's, draw a few things, and breathe. 

It's most entertaining

yells and chest bumps

high fives

runs outside

shouts of joy

like a bunch of maniacs

welcome New Year

I don't mind

smiles and laughter

welcome 

Happy New Year all!